Hey, Matt, I had to stop reading at this point. So far, you’ve essentially said “here’s why hierarchy and trauma are bad for you.”
The book is just a book. It’s plainly not your problem here. I totally know how it feels — to believe your own trauma trigger is really the thing that’s the problem. It isn’t. It just never has been. In realizing that, we heal.
It’s not the Course that causes this, just like it’s not even Trump voters or the economy or climate change. It just is, and it’s painful until we learn to heal.
Gabor Maté on addiction and triggering is better on this topic than I am — if you want to learn more, I’d go there.
In the mean time, take care of yourself.