I Emotionally Abused My Ex. How Do I Live With That?

What does healing mean for the abuser?

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I told him I wanted to kill him, because then and there, I did. He was a thousand miles away at least, so we fortunately never got the chance to learn if I was serious. I wasn’t, but I still said it. The pain cut me open like rotten fruit and nothing sane was left. I didn’t hate him — I just hated. It burned.